My poor LJ has been suffering neglect. I've mostly just been using MySpace for mainly one reason, but I plan to start using my LJ and Xanga once again as well. This is a layout from CreateBlog. I hate borrowing layouts, so hopefully I'll get a new one made and up before the week ends. I have to go now, but I'll be back tomorrow to update and edit things.
Love,
Rayburn

So...it's been a while since I've updated my dear ol' lj. Since it is summer and the only activity I have planned is a family reunion today and tomorrow, I've decided to bring this thing back to life. It will have a new layout and everything...I'll probably end up locking or deleting all of my previous posts because I'm going to start using this site as an artistic domain of sorts. All of my vids, graphics, layouts, and such will be posted here. Well, I have to go make about a seven hour drive back to Kentucky, so I'll see all of you in a couple of days!
-Rayburn

Savage Garden - Gunning Down Romance

Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain
In your brain
And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in your veins
In your veins
Love come quickly
'Cause I feel my self-esteem is caving in
It's on the brim
Love come quickly
'Cause I don't think I can keep this monster in
It's in the skin

Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine
They're morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen
Rarely seen
Love I beg you
Lift me up into that privileged point of view
The world of two
Love don't leave me
'Cause I console myself that Hallmark cards are true
I really do

I'm gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain't nothing but a tragedy

I'm gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain't nothing but a tragedy

Love don't leave me

Take these broken wings
I'm gonna to take these broken wings
And learn to fly
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away

I'm gunning down romance

Take these broken wings
I'm going to take these broken wings
And learn to fly
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away

I'm gunning down romance
I'm gunning down romance
I'm gunning down romance
I'm gunning down romance

Hello my dears! As a couple of you know, my family had our gift exchange last night. It was wonderful; everyone seemed happy and that's always a plus. I feel extremely blessed. As for my gifts, I could not be more satisfied. From my aunt and uncle I received a gorgeous outfit. And don't be shocked guys...but it includes a skirt! Lol. From my grandmother I received various items of clothing, one item of which I am wearing now(yellow pants with Dopey on them that say, "Cute, but clueless"), and Trivial Pursuit DVD Star Wars Saga Edition. It rocks. Majorly. I'd been playing it for an hour or so before I got on here. My cousins, Abby and Richie, got me this absolutely adorable messenger bag with Jack from The Nightmare Before Christmas on it, as well as a Jack and Sally shirt, and two The Nightmare Before Christmas pins. From my sister I received candy, an Evanescence shirt(yay! You guys know how much I love my band shirts, especially Ev ones.), and a gorgeous Amy poster. And finally, from my mum and dad got me Firefly(which I cannot wait to sit down and watch. Joss Whedon is my hero!!!), Star Wars Clone Wars Volumes 1 & 2(these were awesome. I watched them as soon as I got home. And I'm not one for animated anything, so when I say it was awesome, I mean it.), and...*grins* A FORCE FX LIGHTSABER! Buahahaha. Yup, I did get the lightsaber I told you all about. Anakin's, of course. It's...amazing. Sooo much fun to just play with. It'll be even more fun, though, when Laura and I get together and have our lightsaber duels(she might be getting Mace Windu's lightsaber.) Also, yesterday, my friend Daniel got me the whole Star Wars PEZ dispenser collection(I had a ball with these the whole day. The Vader one was like my good luck charm on my English exam.) and the Underworld comic book. So thanks to everyone. It was a wonderful Christmas and it wouldn't have been so wonderful if you guys weren't there. Not because you bought me gifts...but because you were there with me, and you were happy.
On a second note, I'm back in Kentucky! We got back around oh....5 or 5:30 AM, maybe. Dad went to bed around 6:30, and I've been watching Clone Wars and playing Trivial Pursuit...as well as occasionally picking up my lightsaber and pretending I'm a Jedi. :oP
I want to watch the original Star Wars trilogy so bad right now. I'm thinking of convincing dad to take me to rent them... *shrugs* I just really miss watching them.
I think that's about it. If you want to see/talk to me, call my dad's cell. Love ya!

Song of the Day
Cold - Happens All The Time

I still hang on every word
In the world of faded memories
Where you're still in love with me
I can see it in your eyes
You look as if you major tom has lost control

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my way to you

To you...
To you...

If a dream's all that I've got
Then I wish you in a fairy tale
Where you're still in love with me
I could see it in your eyes
The look as if your hero fell and lost his soul

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my way to you...

To you...
To you...
To you...

I must hold on
This happens all the time
I still find my faith in you
I cant hold on
this happens all the time
I still find my way to you
(I wont hold on)
(I wont hold on)
To you...
(I wont hold on)
To you
(I wont hold on)
To you
(I wont hold on)
To you
(I wont hold on)
(I wont hold on)
(I wont hold on)
(I wont hold on)

Hello all! It has been a few days since I've updated. Amber, I screened your last comment so you know who wouldn't happen to stumble upon it by any chance. So don't be mad and think I deleted it, because I didn't. Its still there, just invisible/screened so no one but myself and possibly the people on my friends list can see it.
Anywho, I'm really excited because my family is having our usual Christmas Eve routine this Friday. My sister wont be here for Christmas because she has to work :'( , so we're just having our gift exchange and Christmas Eve dinner on Friday.
After that, on Saturday morning, I'm making my way back to Kentucky. So, be ready for me with big hugs!
On a more boring note, exams are all this week. I've already taken my Biology exam, so one of my three-most-dreaded is out of the way. Today I have Algebra II. Normally, I'd be worried...but math has miraculously been one of my best subjects since I've moved here, and I understand it. I have a 93 or higher in that class. So yeah, I'm not worried. Then tomorrow I have Design I. Thursday I have no exams because I have study hall for the blocks that are having exams. Friday brings my other two of the three-most-dreaded; English II and Latin II. Especially Latin. As long as I read the stories I need to for my English exam, I'll do fine.
Welp, I have to go to school and take my Algebra exam! Love ya!

Oh, by the way, this is my new layout. Its been up for a couple of days.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up, and breathe me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up, and breathe me

Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up, and breathe me

Okay...so I'm on the bus and everything is going as usual; the overly talkative girl is prattling on beside me. I'm reading an extremely good book called 'Twilight', and everyone else is acting as annoying and immature as ever.
It was about the time that we entered my subdivision that I picked up on four words that caught my interest: "...moved from South Africa..."
Now I knew I wasn't going to see a long lost twin of Dale or Shaun, but it still made me look up from my highly interesting book...and believe me, when my nose is stuck in a book, it stays there. So this was an odd sort of thing for me to do.
And then I heard it.
The most gorgeous voice I'd ever heard come from a teenager. He definitely had the rich South African accent that I'd heard so often when listening to Shaun or Dale speak in interviews. So I turned to see who was speaking and discovered that the owner of the voice was just as gorgeous. Blond, granted, but the duller, more relaxed and natural shade of blond. Beautiful face....it sort of reminded me of the actor who plays Cedric Diggory in Goblet of Fire. I tried not to stare, only continuing to observe him for a moment. He was speaking in Afrikaans at the request of the talkative girl. I returned to my book, but try as I might, I could not focus on the words in front of me. This experience has taught me something.

.....

I need to talk more.

Hey guys! Well, here's the new layout. Its okay, I'll probably start working on another one and spend more time on it so it turns out better. This one will do for now, though. This layout features the amazing band, Flyleaf (duh). I'm working on trying to get a song on here...but every time I try, it screws it up, so I'm about to give up.
Dad, Jen, my grandmother, and my aunt Wendy left today. :(
My uncle is taking me to see Goblet of Fire for the third time. :)
Thanksgiving break has been fun. I can't wait until Christmas break. There's just something about this time of year.
That's pretty much it...the past couple of days, fun though they were, were pretty uneventful. Love ya!

Songs of the Day
Flyleaf - Red Sam

Here I stand
Empty hands
Wishing my wrists were bleeding
To stop the pain from the beatings

There you stood
Holding me
Waiting for me to notice you

But who are you
You are the truth (you are the truth)
Outscreaming these lies
You are the truth (you are the truth)
Saving my life

The warmth of your embrace
Melts my frostbitten spirit
You speak the truth and I hear it
The words are I love you
And I have to believe in you

But who are you
You are the truth (you are the truth)
Outscreaming these lies
You are the truth (you are the truth)
Saving my life

My hands are open
And you are filling them
Hands in the air
In the air, in the air, in the air

And I worship
And I worship
And I worship
And I worship

You are the truth (you are the truth)
Outscreaming these lies
You are the truth (you are the truth)
Saving my life
__________________

Flyleaf - Sorrow

Sometimes life seems to quiet into paralyzing silence
Like the moonless dark, meant to make me strong.
Familiar breath of my old lies
Changed the color in my eyes
Soon he will perferate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you, and hold for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole... as you flew right through me.

Left alone with only reflections of the memory
To face the ugly girl that's smothering me.
Sitting closer than my pain...
He knew each tear before it came,
And soon he will perforate the fabric of the peaceful by and by

We kiss each other one more time
And sing this lie that's half way mine
The sword is slicing through the questions so I won't be fooled
By his angel light..

Sorrow lasts through this night
I'll take this piece of you and for all eternity
For just one second I felt whole as you flew right though me
and up into the stars
Joy will come.

Okay, so it's been a few days since I've updated. Not much has gone on. I took a trip back to Kentucky and spent some time with Amber, which was tons of fun. I shall be back in Kentucky again the first week of my Christmas break.
I've been to see Harry Potter twice and my uncle is taking me again on Thursday....and I'll get to see it again sometime in IMAX. I absolutely love this movie. I've had my complaints about the last three, but this one was true to the movie and didn't leave out anything that was important to the plots of Goblet of Fire or the rest of the Harry Potter series. So, I was very pleased.
I'm on Thanksgiving break! I need this break, if only to catch up on sleep. I need to get into the habit of waking up earlier on "B Days" because when I come back from Christmas break, I wont have three study halls. I'll have classes in the place of two of them, but still have one.
I made a music video. It's an Anakin/Padme Star Wars fan vid. I'll post the link to it at the bottom, if anyone is interested.
I want to make a layout so bad, but my Photoshop is down at the moment. I'll probably just download it again...but then I'll have to put all of the brushes back on it and blah. I really don't want to go through all that trouble, but I probably will. So yeah, expect a new layout soon.
That's pretty much it. You guys know where to call if you want to talk to me on the phone. Love ya!

-Rayburn

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4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*does a dance* My aunt and I are going to see it on Thursday night. I'm curious to see if anyone from my school goes. Possibly Stephanie...Daniel seems like a Harry Potter fan...but I'm not sure. I'll have to ask. *shrug* Wow I'm excited.
Saturday was fun. We were out of the house almost all day. Mum took Jen and I to our hair appointments, then we went to the mall. Jen and I got an outfit from Hot Topic. I finally have a Harry Potter shirt! W00t! It has Ron on it. After that, we went movies to see 'In Her Shoes'. It was pretty good.
Tomorrow is a certain special someone's BIRTHDAY! *wink*AMBER*wink*
Anywho, Jen and Dad left Saturday night. I was sad. Still am. *sigh*
....Hmm....not much more to update on, I don't think. I'm making another layout that will go up probably Saturday. Welp, I'm gonna go, unless I get bored again while I'm waiting to leave for school.
Love ya!!

Song of the Day

Dark New Day - Fill Me Again

Like a postcard picture fading out to desert winter,
Once an ocean now it leaves me dry.
Clouds are separating. Tear apart this life I'm living
I'm gravitated to this brand new light.

Is it in me? Am I still in control?
Did it leave me? I look around for a soul.
What's come over me? Always waiting on the next wave to wash over,
And Fill Me Again
Fill Me Again

Will it carry me far enough from all I've suffered?
Will it bridge the gap from there to here?
I wonder if I had it all would I feel there's something missing?
In tomorrow's light it seems so clear

Is it in me? Am I still in control?
Did it leave me? I look around for a soul.
What's come over me? Always waiting on the next wave to wash over,
And Fill Me Again
Fill Me Again

The wind is keeping me from falling forward.
Just another crutch to get me through.
The wave is coming and it's rising upward.
It's going to lift me to meet the blue.

Is it in me? Am I still in control?
Did it leave me? I look around for a soul.
What's come over me? Always waiting on the next wave to wash over,
And Fill Me Again
Fill Me Again
Fill Me Again
Fill Me Again